The Enemy Under My Feet (Psalm 91:13)

Psalm 91:13
You will tread upon the lion and the cobra; you will trample the great lion and the serpent.

Today was an emotional rollercoaster. Just little things tended to happen that bugged me. First of all i got up late for church, got lost (how ironic cause ive been there a thousand times!) didn't make it in time to go in, i'd be too late. I had a little argument with my mother when i went over to my parent's house...and that's not even the biggest part of my day.

Well, today Aaron and i have been married for 6 months! :) I am celebrating it (even though tons of people tell me you only celebrate on the years) because im so happy to have found the love of my life at the age of 20 and wow!! 6 months! :D He told me he'd call me today...and when he didn't i got the feeling something came up. If he doesn't call, he at least writes me something on FB so i know he's ok...but he didn't today. So i prayed for him and missed him but all was ok...

I got home and kinda watched movies and sulked. Around 2 o'clock i got a phone call from my Key Caller (a lady from the army who keeps army spouses up to date on things during a deployment) She said that there was an "incident" that affected Bravo Battery (which is Aaron's battery) But because i was getting this call (and not the soldiers at my door) it meant that he was ok, but there would be more information about it through a "Red Message" and they would email it after all the other spouses had been contacted.
When she first called i didn't know what to think. She said there had been "an incident" and i imidiately felt like praying, but i didn't know for what. I knew in my heart and had peace that Aaron was ok, but who wasn't?

Later this afternoon i got the e-mail. A soldier had died.
I have no idea who this man was, but all i know is that when i saw his name, i immediately prayed for his family and their loss. And then, selfishly, i thanked God over and over again for protecting MY husband.

Tonight as i read through my Psalm 91 devotion, verse 13 spoke to me...
It's about fears that we have- our spiritual enemies, they may start out little and become big in our lives and once they become big they can create big problems. I thought about that little fear that's always deep in the back of my mind that Aaron might not come home to me. But this verse says that we have the authority to "tread" upon these fears, "the lion and cobra and serpent."

When i look back on today, when i got that phone call and i had peace in my heart that Aaron was ok, i feel like that was a moment where i trampled on/"treaded" on these fears that the enemy has placed in my head. The fear that Aaron might not come home to me.Yes,that could happen, he is a soldier and he's on a real battlefield. Not only a battlefield with humans, but also a spiritual one because he's a believer.
Instead of breaking down thinking the worst and worrying and keeping that worry on my top priority day after day that he may not come back to me, i believe that God has helped me have the peace to overcome that fear. I am treading on that fear. And i am proud to have that peace in my heart about God protecting Aaron.

Please pray for the soldier's family who died. This loss is a great one.
And please continue to pray for our soldiers' safety as they are in a very dangerous situation. [this situation today kinda made all the dangers of deployment life come to real life, there are people dying. Ive tried to ignore it but being an armywife now, i can't. You never really know until you're living it. I feel, even though i had never met this man, that he was a part of my family too just because he was a soldier.]
I've been fervently praying over the last few days, every chance i get, that Aaron and his group would be safe. That God would place a hedge of protection over them and i truely believe that God has been answering my prayers.
Thank you to everyone else who is praying for Aaron, and all the other soldiers out there. They all need it.
And prayer is powerful. It works!


*thanks for reading this really long post, hope it wasn't confusing, i think for the most part i just needed to get my thoughts and feelings down.

Just Plain Tired...of it all...

So it’s been a long, lonely weekend. I’ve been overwhelmed with emotions. Mostly missing Aaron TERRIBLY! I can’t seem to push this feeling behind me. Im feeling clingy, but im left without my husband to cling to. He did call me Saturday morning. We talked for a while and it was Wonderful to hear his voice, but I haven’t heard from him since. I know him being in Afghanistan is a BIG deal, and I should be grateful I just heard from him….but I still feel like I need him right now. He seems to be the only one that can calm my heart and mind with all that’s going on (and everything that’s not going on) and I just want to be able to talk to him or just have him on the phone with me listening to the noise of the phoneline. I just want to feel that connection right now. I miss him. A LOT.

Im also tired of the negative comments coming from random people in the world and the supid judgemental things that seem to keep being said and happening to me. This one lady said "you're only 20 and he's in the army...honey, get ready, you'll be divorced in a few weeks."
Somone else..."newlyweds and military don't work"
...theres more but i won't go into that.
I'm tired of these people being so judgemental. Maybe it doesn't work for some people, but THOSE people are not ME AND AARON. I love him. He loves me. And we both love God. So, to all those negative people in the world... First of all, STOP talking to me. And secondly, WE WILL LAST!!! And last, STAY out of our business if you're not going to support us!!! (ok, sorry, i had to vent...)

Anyways....

My parents decided to take a mini-vacation. I offered to take care of the girls for a day while they went and had a day/night off. They definitely deserve this break!
Their energetic spirits (the girls’) have definitely kept me busy enough not to sulk about missing Aaron, but there’s still that feeling.—even more so at night-- I let the girls go outside for the afternoon and decided to take some pictures for my future scrapbooking needs (*Im thinking about signing up as a Creative Memories Consultant*) Here are two of my favorites I took of the girls interacting with each other….there were a lot more, but I didn’t want to put too many on here…the rest are on facebook.


So now I should go to bed. (if i can sleep....sleep has been a problem lately, AGAIN) I have a lot to do in the morning, getting them ready, making breakfast and lunches….hopefully I won’t make the girls late for school. :)

Growing Up

Wow, My little sisters are growing up so fast. This is their second week of school and they love it. I went with my mom and the girls on their first day of school. We walked them over to school and there we left them. I actually almost cried, because we were just leaving them in a new area all alone, they looked so small. But they were brave and sooo excited that morning!




I got to keep Remington for another few days. About 4 days or so. It was really nice to have his little energetic self running around this apartment, keeping me company and definitely on my toes!


Mom and i went to the pool and took him with us so we could do some laps. We got him a cute little float. He was quiet the whole time...i don't know what was goign through his little head in that "big bathtub" lol but overall i think he enjoyed himself. Aunt Rachel (mom) and i took turns supervising and playing with him while the other would go swim a few laps. It was fun. And he really enjoyed getting to play with Arianna and McKayla when they got home from school.
Such a sweet little boy, but wow! He has definitely grown since the last time i took care of him, and that was only a few weeks ago!





Aw i love this little guy!

Someone else who's growing up....AMBER
My sister is going to be 24 years old this month! I'm so proud of her. She's the best big sister any girl could ever ask for. I've known her for a little over 20 years, and gosh, we're always best friends forever NO MATTER WHAT!!! Can't wait to celebrate with her!

My best friend JESSICA is moving to Mississippi this month. I sure am gonna miss her....

AND... last but not least, There are 365 days in a year. And Aaron has been gone for 133! So we only have 232 days left until he gets to come home since his orders only allow him to be gone for a year and not longer. Im praying he gets home sooner than a whole year, but with only 8 months left, im glad this deployment has gone smoothly so far. I definitely feel that our relationship is stronger through this distance and stress of deployment. And we definitely couldn't be doing this great without God and the prayers and support of family and friends. Thank you.
**September 19th will be our 6 month anniversary**